Just the drama because it’s the most interesting lol.
Let me start this off by saying most people who went didn’t know their dates too well and just got set up or were last minute dates. Actually I’ll list them here so the story makes more sense.
MB with an Indian from KKG – I think they were set up and they definitely didn’t like each other. Every time I saw her she was complaining about something or another.
Gabe (freshman) with some 21+ year old Asian girl – last minute date. She was supposed to go with some Pike to their formal which was also this weekend but the guy’s parents came down and he couldn’t go. She spent most of her time going to the clubs with us and leaving him to do whatever else with the other underaged people.
Bryan Perez.. not really sure who his date was hahaha.
Dave (freshman) brought 3 dates, Asian twins and a short Asian girl – haha I don’t know what to say. He is the super super stereotypical rich white boy. I don’t like him…
So here we go!
Friday: no drama that I know of.
Saturday: party suite day where all the drama happens. So the party suite this time is the one that was used in Real World Las Vegas. It was pretty cool seeing the confession area, the rooms, the bathrooms, the showers, the pool table, and the phone. So the showers were kind of in the center of the suite and there is a window that people can see people’s feet when they are showering.
So Gabe never got a chance to get into the suite because they carded him for some reason, but that doesn’t stop his date from going to the party suite anyways. So she’s there a lone and since MB doesn’t like his date, he might as well take someone else’s date! They hooked up at the pool party that afternoon already, but making out wasn’t enough. They took the action to the bedroom and people had fun opening the door on them once in a while and running away giggling.
Then Dave’s dates were left unattended so the short Asian decided she liked Bryan and wanted him then and there and there was nothing that could stop her. They went into the shower and started getting down to business. They were both on the ground in the bathroom, in full view of everyone sitting outside by the phone. People took snap chats, they took videos, they pours alcohol over them. It was so trashy, haha.
Sleep time, update more later.
Got the rejection email from ucsd today. I don’t feel sad at all because I already have an acceptance and honestly did not want to stay in Sd for another 4 years. It’s been fun but it is time to experience a new place! Moving out of here is going to suck though. There is so much stuff to take out. And the memories. The feels. Sho sad.
Oh my Jesus I’ve been playing a lot with my friends everyday haha. It has been fun though. We have a ranked 5′s team now that us currently in crappy bronze1 but were going to silver soon!
Add me: dogs go ruff
I read your newest blog entry. It’s kind of funny how we’re kind of communicating through blogs since we’re not talking everyday now. We talked the other day and yeah the chance of us getting back together is really slim for reasons you now know. Maybe things could have been different, but I guess it is just unlucky or something that you decided that you did not enjoy your job now rather than a couple of months ago. The main reason we even broke up was because you wanted to stay at your current location for at least 10 years, but now you’re trying to quit? Come on….. But anyway after we talked I thought to myself… why wouldn’t I just get back together with you if you moved back here? We were so good together and it would be easy. If I could just ignore everything that you did prior to our breakup then we could go back to normal, but I can’t.
After thinking more about everything, I’m not sure if I really feel “hurt” or “betrayed” but I definitely do feel something negative. Maybe it’s because I felt you were taking me for granted. I’m someone you talk to about your job when you’re at your job and I know (or knew) what your goals and ambitions were. Then you go to school and start hanging out with other people your age and who know everything about your job. Why do you need to talk to that guy anymore now that you have people close to you to talk to, right? And so you stopped. And this may be a bit stupid but I do feel that people act more “honestly” or “show their true selves” when drunk. Lower thoughts, inhibitions, and everything and of course you act more on what you feel and your true emotions. So when you got drunk with your co-workers and never even thought of sending me a text/call to update me on what you’re doing multiple nights in a row, that meant something to me. I can’t know what was going on through your mind during those nights, and I don’t think you’ll ever honestly tell me or even admit it to yourself what you were thinking, but your mind was definitely not thinking about me. Then one day out of the blue we talk on the phone and you know what you asked me. I said no and you said you were dumb and forget that you said it, but there is no way I could do that.
I thought we were doing fine. Maybe it was getting sort of mundane texting and talking everyday about the same things, but that’s what a long distance relationship involves. But once you asked what you asked I knew it was over. And you even ignored some texts the very next day after telling me to forget about it. You’re not in class all day. You have plenty of time to text, to call, to webcam, but you chose not to do any of those things. You chose to be with your co workers and pretend like your “boyfriend” didn’t exist. This actually reminds me of when I road tripped with you to Texas and we met your friend at the house. You told me you didn’t want to introduce me as your boyfriend because your coworkers would make fun of you. I let it go at the time, but really?? Then you didn’t even introduce me to her even as a friend for a good five minutes or however long it took to walk through the entire house. I was basically invisible. We just spent the past three days together and right when you meet a friend from work it’s like I don’t exist. That hurt. That is why I was feeling so bad and cried. Yes, you are the only one who I actually felt strongly enough about to bring so much emotion out of me.
Anyway, back to the current situation. Maybe you were thinking you could go on a break for the rest of your time at your class and do whatever you wanted. You could actually act on your emotions and impulses without consequences. Then only after you left your vacation class and went back to your job with no one to talk to, could you call off the break so you had someone to talk to again. I don’t know if this is what you were thinking, but this is what I assume. If it is totally off base please let me know, but I don’t really see any other explanation. Especially considering what happened just a couple of weeks after our breakup. And I don’t think taking breaks and ignoring your significant other is what a healthy relationship is about. Honestly I know I am not the best talker and I don’t talk a lot, but I really really tried my best to communicate with you anytime I felt like we hit a relationship pothole. Those times I kept asking you “why are you mad” and whatever variations were asked because I really really wanted to know what was bothering you so we could fix it. Unfortunately when you were at your class you chose to do the opposite of communicate more. You chose your job, your coworkers, and your fun social life over me.
I know it is one-sided of me to say this since I am not in that situation yet until August, but I truly believe that i would have texted you every single time something funny/stupid/etc happened whenever I went out with med school friends. I would tell you all about the girls in the class as well as the bars or whatever place we went to. I would stay up late just to talk to you. Maybe it was my fault. I was being too boring just playing videogames all day. I admit there were times I would rather play games than to talk to you on the phone. That was stupid. I know. That is something I wish I didn’t do.
Man this post sounds so hostile, but that is because I only pointed out the bad things. Of course there were a lot of good things. Great things, but in the end we are not together. I am not saying there is no chance we get back together again, but it is very unlikely. Unless you can actually explain to me what you were thinking all those nights you went out without talking to me, and do other things I don’t even know, then maybe we could give it another shot if you were to move back to California. But right now we can try to remain friends. I still enjoy talking with you and playing games with you even though you could be a lot better. A LOT! lol.
I know you’re going to read this eventually. Feel free to fb/text me whenever.
Is taking over my life! haha
I’ve been too lazy these past couple months partly because of my lack of responsibilities and partly because of the breakup. But tomorrow I will actually get off my butt and do something. I’ve started reading a body language book that is pretty interesting. I enjoy this type of observational stuff because I am a fan of Sherlock Holmes. In addition to reading, I am going to start doing p90x again. I need to get in shape, not to attract girls or anything like that, but just for myself. I’ll start doing at least one hour of Spanish everyday with Rosetta Stone and an app I downloaded called duolingo. I’ll also start watching some lectures VC sent me to get myself educated lol. When I go back to SD in a couple of weeks I’m going to start trying to surf again with DQ and I might look for some dance class to go to because I suck at dancing haha.
No more laziness. It’s time to be productive.